So, over the past few months I’ve was out of school and it really took a toll on me, and left me with no motivation to do anything in that time. That’s been incredibly stressful simply because I have university applications to sort out, on top of just the stress of knowing that something is wrong.

To try and help me get past that, I’ve started to work on a video project of my year, which I’ll put on my website if and when it’s done. The first few clips have come out well, but there is one thing I really struggle with; Not living in the moment. I knew that the mindset of recording every major thing that happens in my life is not one I have naturally going into this, and at times I wish I recorded some of these things.

An example of this was last weekend on Valentines Day, and I really wanted to record my fun day out with my boyfriend. While I took a fair few photos, I didn’t really get any video for my grand video. Of course, living in the moment over thinking to record things is definitely a thing people really need these days, I wish I could’ve gotten footage. Another struggle with this project I forsee being an issue is just that I am not very good at speaking in front of a camera, let alone in a public space.

The last thing I really have to say about this is just why I’m making the video. It really comes down to the fact that I’ve had no motivation these past few months for anything, and that if I commit myself to making a creative project it’ll help me. I know it is a fairly ambitious project, especially given how underprepared and unskilled I am, but I thought it was worth a shot. Perhaps in recording it I’ll have more things to write for this blog (even if it ends up being written forms of what that portion of video is lol)

I think that about wraps up what I’m doing for my current big project, so I’ll see you next time! Bye!

_{I might just write another article right now about the state of the website, but I just wanted to get something out.}